About
I was crying in the toilets yet again. Trying to stifle the sobs as a ball of soggy tissues balanced on my lap.
It was February 2020 and I’d been back at work for almost 6 months after being on maternity leave; I still didn’t have it all figured out.
Part of me was looking at my career goals thinking I don’t want these any more and did I even consciously choose these for myself?
The other part of me was thinking well if not this, then what?
I had no clue who I was or what I wanted anymore.
I’d returned to work looking forward to a semblance of normality after the rollercoaster of the first year of motherhood, some thinking space and to challenge my brain; I was desperate to think and talk about something other than sleeping schedules or weaning. I thought my brain was going to atrophy from lack of stimulation…
Yet it was so far from what I expected; everything else was the same but I was an entirely different person.
The confidence in my career and abilities had vanished; I was full of self doubt. It was isolating because no one around me seemed to understand what I was going through (although I was ashamed to reveal the full story of what was really going on).
Soon after this latest snotty toilet situation I discovered matrescence; I finally understood what the h*ll was going through and it was the catalyst that changed everything for me.
I dived into learning about it all. I spent hours being coached and processing it all. More hours sitting with other mothers as they processed what they were going through. And even more hours studying to be a coach and matrescence guide, holding space for mothers and walking with them on their way through the transition of becoming a mother.
I learnt to slow down and connect to myself - a baptism of fire for me as I was used to being busy and ‘productive’! It was one of the most important elements to discovering who I was now that I had become a mother - and what I wanted now. You’ll see me banging on about this everywhere!
But I realised there was a vital missing part to all of this that I badly needed when I returned to work after mat leave.
There was no support, or even considered conversations for ambitious career women to prepare them for their return to work.
For the monumental shift in identity that will affect all parts of them - and the effect this will have on their career. It was all about how a baby will ruin your career, the motherhood penalty and how exhausting the juggle was.
Where was the full spectrum of it all
that becoming a mother can supercharge your career
you’ll get laser focussed on …
That all of this and more is possible when you fully embrace the magic and power of matrescence.
And that’s what I’m here for.
